Monday, September 6, 2010

Assalamualaikum and best regards to Muslimin Muslimat, and not forgotten to anyone who happens to view my page :)

Well, it has been 'ages' since I wrote in my last column, not that I'm that busy, but just finding space for myself between work and life and happiness :) The space does not come easily so, I actually had a hard time looking for one.. But let's not talk about it, cos I have an even better topic to be discussed rite now :)
When people asked me, "do you really want to be a teacher?" I would answer this way, "Hmm, not really, my dad asked me to take the tesl course, it was never in my ambitions list". Well, to tell you the truth, there was a bit guilt in myself each time I answered that 'particular' question. It's like as if I was blaming my dad (or myself) for choosing this path for me, and indirectly, I even felt guilty for not being thankful for what Allah has set up upon my life.. Who are we to whine when there is other people who is living even worse life?

Both my housemates in JB are GSTT (Guru Sandaran Tidak Terlatih), for those who do not know what it means, it means that they are contract teachers and the contract will last until the year ends. To talk about my housemates would be another topic, but what I'd like to share with you guys is about one of them who is a married kakak by the name of Kak I. So what happened was, I just got out of my room when I heard sobbing from the next room. And so the one who was sobbing is Kak I. I quickly ran to her, asking what happened and she burst into tears all of a sudden! I kept quiet for a while, leaving her and her emotional state alone.

After wiping out her tears, she told me, "Kamilah, akak positive pregnant", and I was confused :s I looked at her, asking myself, why on earth would she be sad after knowing that she is pregnant?! I mean, would that be great? Why is she crying? I just don't get it! And for a while, I said, "kak, nape akak nangis plak? bukan ke org yg dah kahwin nak anak?" (with my eyes opened like a fish gasping for air), innocent. "Kamilah, kalo akak pregnant, kontrak akak akn terbatal scr automatik, nnt akak tak dpt keje, kalo akak tak keje nnt cmne?" I was numb. I just didn't know what to say and how to say it. I had a still point at that minute. I'm not a contract teacher, I'm a REAL teacher!! I was offered a position as an English academic teacher soon after I've completed my degree in education! And why am I complaining all this while? Shouldn't I be thankful?

"Ya Allah, guide myself from going astray, thank you Allah for everything"


wanderfulmadnificent said...

i think it is ok to be dissastified but not to the point of complaining. it has to be some sort of frustration that has a positive follow-up like what can we do even though we're stuck with a situation that we are displeased with.

like the saying:

"The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way".

oh btw, izzit true that gstt cant get pregnant? i don't think so...i mean, seriouslyyy?!

kamilah ahmad @ ahmaddiah said...

yes maddy, gstt's can get pregnant.. even if they do, they must inform the admin and it's up to them whether to terminate the gstt or not.. its in the pekeliling.. sian kn? :(

the saying fits people who are always positive which i am not.. really need to be more grateful and being a positive thinker.. huhu

its like "always see the glass as half full, not half empty" eh? :p

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