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Sunday, December 12, 2010

to take or not to take..

Bismillah..
I've always dreamt of getting into International Islamic University Malaysia (IIUM) a.k.a UIA since I was in Form 1. Yes, Form 1! Sometimes I'm just proud of myself for having such a clear goal in my life in which I was very determined to undergo my Degree in UIA :) But as a human being, I've also been tested by Allah when sadly to say, I didn't get to pursue my Degree there and had a better place instead, Maktab Perguruan Sultan Abdul Halim, Sungai Petani, Kedah. A place where I've met my bestest bestest BFFJ, Wan Madihah Bt. Wan Abd. Rahman Jauhari and 23 other people who played great significance in my life :) Thank You Allah for every second, minute and hours spent with them, its just priceless and I really do treasure my 23 besties :) My dream was not over just yet~~
So now, I'm 25 years old and single, I feel like this is the right time to pursue my Master in TESL. Why not? The reason I'm all geared up to pursue my Master is because I'm not married yet, which gives me a lil bit comfort that I have all the time I need to go through the 'painful' process, hehe. Besides, it'll be my next step in achieving my dream to get into UIA since I could be a lecturer once I've completed my Master and end my contract with BPG, InsyaAllah :)
'Akak patut amek la, ayah stuju', my dad's strong approval made me even all ablaze with excitement. And so I thought, I should start now. Since I'm teaching in JB, I have two choices, either to pursue it in UPM or UTM. Having little discussions with my parents, siblings and friends, I may go for UTM since it seems good to me in terms of facilities, lecturers and its kind of practical for me as it only takes about 30 minutes to reach there. Besides, I can't deny the fact that I'm attracted to its captivating building structure and landscape~ woohooo, kind of giving me the motivation you know :p
I'm still thinking about it and when the time comes, it'll come anyway. So now I just have to pray hard, plan and let Allah decides what's best for me :)
Those who say: "Our Lord, we have indeed believed, so forgive us our sins and save us from the punishment of the Fire. (al-imran, 3:16) (they are) Those who are patient, those who are true (in Faith, words and deeds), and obedient with sincere devotion in worship to Allah. Those who spend (give the Zakat and alms in way of Allah) and those who pray and begs Allah's pardon in the last hours of the Night (al-imran, 3:17)

4 comments:

wanderfulmadnificent said...

think hard and long and talk about it with people who can give you insights and pray for as long as the nights are nights, InsyaAllah Allah will help you find the answers! ;)

kamilah ahmad @ ahmaddiah said...

talk to people who can me insights? one of them is you? :p hehe, im still thinking about it n i know dat once ive made my decision i cudnt back out.. shud reli have deep deep thought~ :)

Taqiyyuddin said...

Boleh wt essei contoh untuk SPM ni..hehe

kamilah ahmad @ ahmaddiah said...

hehehe, taqi, jangan2, ayat maseh ntah pape nih, huhu.. :p

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